My memories....

HEART Bracelet

I've been looking for a while for something to remember our loss in October. I felt by having something tangible that I could touch every day, our memories would never be forgotten. I finally found something today, and I'm getting there, feeing better... I am getting there physically, but mentally and emotionally it is so hard. One step at a time....

We've both been strong for our 3 gorgeous children, but in a way that has hidden the pain that we have been going through, and I know that it is more pain for me than Rob. He has been so strong for me and so supportive. But in the back of my mind I still can't get over that it was also the year anniversary of his Mum's passing. I know also that they are both together in Heaven, Mumsy will for sure be looking after our little one - that is one thing that has eased Sarah's understanding of it all.

It's not a great picture, but I promised Jill (my SIL) that I'd take a picture of it for her. She's been one of the most supportive people, even though we live so far apart... she gave me a hug at Christmas, which to me spoke a thousand loving, caring words - and I know that she's there for me, even though she's a busy career woman! Oh.. and loving mother to my little neice Doris (the hamster)...

This blog has also been good for me... it's really the first time that I've managed to speak about what I'm going through.. I don't really care if no one reads it.. it's off my chest.. kind of!

Em x